I’ve had this on my mind lately but I always forget to write about it lol. Now that it’s been this long without thinking about or writing it. I kinda forgot ALL of the things I wanted to say. What I retain I’ll write.
Girls, girls, girls, girls, girls I do adore. This holds true, but a lot of people have forgotten that fact that I simply enjoy the company of a girl. In the past yes I may have latched onto every girl, but I guess I couldn’t help it…I was broken hearted after all. It seems like your heart does two things whenever it gets broken
1. You shut out everyone from it, even people you know logically are trying to help you or truly care for you
2. You leave it open and will almost take virtually everyone because you want to be loved by someone else to fill that void
None of those two things are good at all but it’s just a phase you have to go through. If you return straight back to normal after a major breakup…than you must be heartless cause its kind of a way of mourning over the loss.
Anyways back to about me and girls. Well I guess I wanted to express how much I miss being around them. It doesn’t help that whenever I’m alone with someone people are like “aw shit” or “oooooh” so that adds fuel to their uncomfortable fire. People just forget I’m really a one on one person. Just because I can throw a party, go clubbing, have a few drinks, or know a lot of people doesn’t mean I actually am the kinda person who like to be a night owl. I honestly do enjoy simple moments of having lunch or dinner one on one and chatting away about nothing.
It’s assumed that I fall for every girl I meet and that’s not true at all. I’m just interested in getting to know them moreso than the next person cause I try to know them for more than face value. You never really see the complexity of a person when you’re hanging out in a group. If you judge me from my group presence then yes…I can see why you wouldn’t want to be around me. In a group I don’t stand out and look like the most boring person of the bunch. I think I am those things lol, but I wish they took the time to find out more.
I think there’s much more I wanted to say but this is pretty long as is. In the end, I just wish people opened up more and not just to me. To any reasonably genuine person that wants to get to know you. Don’t just be a superficial bitch that only lets in a cute guy or the loud funny guy. Not saying that they can’t be a relatively good person. I’m just saying be fair to everyone cute, shy, quiet, loud, funny, artistic, fat, tall, skinny, nice, romantic, strong, weak, goal driven, complacent, disciplined, and etc.
in the world i live in, where hooking up is an okay thing to do and where holding hands means “i wanna fuck you”, i’ve figured out how i’ll know i have hit the jackpot in the love department. the boy who knows me so well that he regrets the physical things and knows when i’m being serious and when i’m being spiteful is who i want. i’ll know i’ve found the one when i find the boy who wants to spend the day doing something lazy with me, and is so in love with me that he is content with sitting in a room while we’re both doing different things and neither of us is consciously aware of the other person’s presence. when this happens, i’ll know i’ve found the right person.
change the he’s to she and then you’ll see i feel the exact same way
In a strange way I like being at school in the summer. It’s very relaxing to have nothing to worry about but school. It does suck not having a source of income but I think I’ll be alright. I don’t go anywhere much anymore and have no one to really do things with that require money.
I still have no internet so I spend even more time at Brookhaven than your average student lol. I didn’t buy an Algebra textbook so I just borrow it from the library to do homework before class and I catch up on Facebook and Tumblr after class. Pretty simple schedule
Having no internet has very small perk…it makes me rewatch movies I have on DVD that are very good like
An awesome revenge flick. I remember when I watched this in Summer School for English.
Hate it or love it, I THINK it’s a very good movie. Not in plot or anything, but just pure entertainment. It had a workable story that helped you revolve around cars and drifting without just turing into a documentary on cars or drifting culture. Plus you have to love the Tokyo setting since well I’m Asian and I am very fascinated with Japan. The first Fast & Furious had the element for the most part of a action movie around cars but the plot was very paper thin…like why don’t all truckers just carry guns in their cars, instead of let the police find the culprits? 2Fast2Furious and Fast & Furious left out the elements of an action movie around cars to an action movie…with tuned cars. Maybe I don’t make sense.
Either way that’s about it. I go to school early, go to class, hang out to use the interent home, eat, work out, and go home and watch movies…that my summer life